Mar 15: Day 31
- Bike: 75 minutes Z1
250 yd Z1, 200 yd Z2, 10 x (50 yd Z4/20″ rest) 250 yd Z1Bands
Got up at 5AM and did the bike, feeling lousy, but it was just Z1 work. Basically pedal enough to keep your heart rate elevated. Even with staying in Z1 power, I was sweating profusely and my HR crept into Z3: all signs I wasn’t there physically today. I ended up staying home and replacing my planned swim with bands. I’ll do swims on Friday and Sunday instead to make up for it, and shift my bike to tomorrow evening. Hopefully that gives enough time.
I found an article today that really hit home for me. It is apparently about a show called “Skin Tight”, and talks about people who have gone far in their weight loss journeys, many much further than I had to. Now, they are dealing with the loose skin that goes along with that.
One of the things watching that video that really struck me is both video clips included people who talked about feeling like the real them is now trapped inside a bag of skin. While my problems aren’t as severe as it is for the folks profiled, that is EXACTLY how it feels. I have a ripped 6 pack, I can feel it. I just can’t see it. I have a great body buried under the damage I did to myself when I was younger.
If you’ve ever found it hard to understand why people who lose a lot of weight might still be self conscious, watch those snippets. It’s spot on.
Even with that, I wouldn’t change it. I am still so glad I got healthy and turned my life around, and even with my flaws I am still much happier than I ever was heavy. It’s just the consequence of the choices I made. I can live with that, because it means I can LIVE, which down the path I was on I may not have managed.
Stay healthy folks, or if you need to get healthy, do your best to make a change, today. Even a small one. It’s worth it. YOU are worth it.