May 24, Day 101
- 55 min bike, 5 minutes in Z1, 45 minutes Z2, 5 minutes Z1
- 39 min run, 5 minutes Z1, 5 minutes Z2, 8 x (1 minute Z4/2 minutes Z1) 5 minutes Z1
- 60 min bike, 15 minutes in Z1, 35 minutes Z2, 10 minutes Z1
- 1500m swim, 250 yd Z1, 500 yd Z3, 500 yd Z2, 250 yd Z1
It’s difficult in any effort like this to anticipate all the things you’ll have to deal with to make it all happen. Sure, you can see the plan in advance and map it out on the calendar and it looks great months out before you start. Then life happens and the calendar fills up with things you didn’t plan on but knew could happen. So, you juggle and move things around and try to ignore the anxiety that crops up when you do stuff like that.
Then other stuff happens and everything goes out of whack.
I had the start of this all planned out. With everything happening (graduations, birthdays, events, work, visits, taking care of other people’s pets, pool closures, weather etc) around this time in May I knew it was going to be challenging to start my plan now, but start it now I had to do. For the most part I’ve managed to stay on top of that with some creative and flexible scheduling, proactive when I can be, reactive when I must. Thing about it is, I knew all that was either going to happen in advance or likely to happen so I was mentally prepared for it.
But I wasn’t prepared for when my allergies kicked into high gear. Normally they are fairly mild if I avoid doing too much in the grass but for the past 10 days or so they have been horrible. I think it has to do with the rainstorms causing a sudden bloom. I wake up several times a night trying to breath, which obviously does not lead to great sleep or great workouts. Two nights ago I woke up at 3am with a sinus headache so extreme I couldn’t stay lying down. I ended up balling my fist into my temple and laying on that because it seemed to help. Allergy meds help, but they also affect my energy and mood and not always in positive ways.
Not getting good sleep and having trouble breathing properly was definitely not in the plan.
Of course, this can lead to tough workouts where I am more tired before, during and after than I think I should be. Those cause anxieties that I know, no matter how carefully I explain them, nobody is going to understand.
See, most people who asks how training is going either 1) is doing it just to be polite and really doesn’t want a long answer and/or 2) wants to hear the positive stuff. I know that. I get that. Those who are really interested in my well-being I can tell this stuff to, but how do I make people understand how stressful this can be? If you have never run a marathon for example, you can IMAGINE what it’s like but you don’t really KNOW. You haven’t had to train specifically for that event for several months, you haven’t had to run it, and you haven’t experienced how hard those last miles can be.
I know all that, and I know I have to do 114.4 miles before I start mine. It scares the hell out of me that I’m this tired now. Every time I move a workout or miss a workout it feeds the anxiety that I won’t be fully prepared to deal with this thing. Every time I have a bad workout it chips away at my confidence a little bit that I can really do this. You can put on a brave front and try to keep your mind right if things are going well. If you’re mentally and physically exhausted, it’s challenging to say the least.
Of course, folks not going through that just see you’re cranky. 🙂
I will see this rough patch through because getting this done is important to me. Hopefully the allergies will pass, things will calm down, and I can string a few good days together to get my confidence back. Meanwhile, one day at a time.